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INTROVERT BAKER
She does...
Sometimes I look at her, and wonder if she remembers you. Does she expect you to walk in and call out for her? Is she waiting for your...
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Jul 3, 20241 min read
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Every chord I play keeps me paralysed. Every note reminds I am yours to remain. Do you remember us sometimes? Do you remember the...
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Jan 29, 20241 min read
Had you chosen me
I hope the angels protect you I hope you the universe works to get everything you ever dreamed of I hope the prophets whisper your name...
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Jan 19, 20241 min read
I remember
There was a time you were mine. Your dreams were my dreams and I would have done everything humanly possible to have you smile. I...
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Dec 20, 20231 min read
Forever an option, but the priority
I wonder what it would be like to be the priority; not to be the option, the back up forever available; I would what it would be like to...
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Nov 27, 20231 min read
We are better as strangers
I wished I have prepared you to live on your own. I wished I had taught you how to make your favorite meal. I wished I had let you in on...
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Oct 20, 20231 min read
Why is letting go the hardest part?
I sincerely thought we had more time...more time for you to learn and for me to bear. for it to hurt that much, I know it was love. A...
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Oct 17, 20231 min read
Scars never disappear.
The wound never healed, Time lied. She came to me, full of promises of a better tomorrow; she lied. The tear in my flesh and the void in...
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Jul 5, 20231 min read
If only I could trade my holidays....
The impending holidays is making me anxious; there will be free time, I do not do well with free time. I'm so tired of feeling lonely and...
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Jun 26, 20231 min read
Even on the brightest days....
Will I ever be fine again? Was I actually ever fine? What is even the definition of fine. I learned to carry on through the storm because...
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Jun 14, 20231 min read
Would food improve my mood?
Where do our thoughts come from? How is our mind able to conjure such crippling fears and insecurities? I am currently reading a book;...
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May 31, 20231 min read
Talking about it is not the problem...
I can talk about you. I can talk about the harm you inflicted in surprising details without flinching. I can talk about the help I...
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Apr 11, 20231 min read
Chapter 2: Fear of a different kind
Would his touch erase the memory of yours? Would his kiss cover the scars you left? Would his embrace help to hold the pieces together?...
heureuseenfin
Mar 31, 20231 min read
Why is the feeling not going away?
I should be angry, resentful, eager to move on, with a desire not to ever look back. But those random images and far gone moments creep...
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Feb 18, 20231 min read
There is finally no going back.
Too much has been said and done for any of us to forget. I am still in denial that I lost the status of "Wife", I lost the possibility of...
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Jan 10, 20231 min read
What am I feeling?
I deluded myself into thinking I was getting better...that I was finally getting the fatality of what happened out of my system. Until he...
heureuseenfin
Dec 29, 20221 min read
You never know when it is the last time
My life changed on the night of the 26th of March 2022. On the 25th of March, when I went to sleep could I have guessed that the man who...
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Dec 21, 20221 min read
Sometimes it just comes.
I thought I was getting better, then out of nowhere it hits. The memories of the place we used to share. ....our lazy Sunday...
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Dec 16, 20221 min read


The day where it was almost right.
I have always liked cooking. I think this might be the way I express my love. In some deep forgone corner of my subconscious, of a life...
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Dec 3, 20221 min read


Book review: Five Love Languages: Singles Edition (1)
In my search of "self love", I was recommended this book. I don't really know what I was expecting - I sort of guide maybe or some big...
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Dec 2, 20222 min read
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